50 Shades Of Grey-Review-The Red Room Of Pain!

50 shades of grey
"The red room"

I like the look of that bed. I can almost imagine laying naked, face down, spread eagle, arms restrained above my head. Totally vulnerable, ankles secured tightly so I can not move. Then the relentless burning, cutting sting of the cane as it lashes down across my bare bottom, cutting across my sit spot. The sounds of my screams as the pain gets almost too unbearable to cope with; the scream helping me release the pent up agony so I can cope with it, so I can go right up to the edge of my limits then slightly over.....................................................

"  For those of you who don’t know, Fifty Shades of Grey is supposed to be based on the main characters of Twilight if they had crazy S&M sex. "

Bitch Fest Post-The Negative Side Of The Lovely Like Minded 'Spanking' Scene-

Sooo! I made a HUGE! decision. I am giving up on dieting & giving up on spanking. I am going to focus on my garden & creating our beautiful, bohemian home. Ohh! & feng shui & witchy stuff. All spanking does is make me remember negative crap. All dieting does is make me fatter, more disappointed, more disheartened, more of a failure...Enough is enough...

What is the point of putting all my focus on the two things which will never be how I want it to be. It will take a lot of effort on my part to steer clear of Bs, Ouch & Fetlife......

Gawd! What else will I blog about, lol...I might end up with a vacant blog...but...That just goes to show what consumes my mind therefore my life. Yeah. Writing about gardening & feng shui & witchy stuff, is a tad dull...

I just don't like the scene. I don't like the people. I think the scene is full of emotionally retarded people. Lets face it. I had his lordship {Taking the pee. I don't really see him as my lord, lol}. He was one of the best Dom's. A actual Dom. Who was ever so charming, respectful...Amazing at spanking. Hence the jealous bitches. Ohh! Yeah! & the bitter, twisted mental case PE screwing with my head, then setting out to destroy my reputation. Just like he did L's...Evil! Vindictive! Spiteful! Malicious! Ugly little man...

F is basically a unreliable control freak. Who assumes negative shit! about me. I am cursed, lol...Sooo! I might as well do something about it. Give up on the idea that I am going to lose weight & meet my ideal Dom {Who does not exist} If he does exist I will have to join the que. Good Dom's, who are not arrogant, tight, user, tossers; are very desirable...A bit like black Friday with only one tele in the sale 75% off...

Personally. I think there is too much settling for crap, which allows crap & creates crap...What woman in her right mind, wants to be used & abused 'no fees exchanged' by some ugly, useless bloke with all the charm & respect of a sex offender who stalks & grooms young boys & girls...

Women want a LOT! more, but it is almost an impossible dream. Mind you. The likes of B, M F, etc etc etc, are none too attractive. Sooo! They form a 'ugly bint' clique & support each other. As S said. Women want attention from other women. He is right, but only because they are all of a kind. Fat, ugly, insecure, screwed up, suffering from some illness or other, usually fibro. It is more of a fattie, fibro clique, lol...{Ohh! Yesss! I went there. I was diagnosed with lupus 22 yrs ago, so yes I can go there}

I suppose I could carry on slagging the weirdo's off for a little while longer, just why I make the changes. Changing habits is challenging. The difference being. I accept that I am never going to lose weight to feel less self conscious to sift through the tons of shit to find my ideal Dom. Only to find that a whole bunch of jealous bitches have got their needy claws into him...

Sooo! Steer clear of getting noticed. Don't log into Bs. Or FL. Or Ouch. Don't blog publicly about them. {Oops! I did} Just use them to have a good ole blog bitch fest...Its like L. Mz L. The druggy with narcissistic tendencies. B the screwed up emotionally retarded 'Bully!'. M F sooo! desperate for attention, acceptance & approval. Emo M. Who thought she had found her knight in shining armor, but he brought his princess with him to the ball...

Not that I am a 'princess' Maaaybe a lickle in my blog, lol...

Yep! I went there. Yes I agree there is no need for it. If I made lots of lovely, like minded, kissing, hugging, kissing arse, fake, smarmy, two faced, gossiping, back stabbing...effort. I might fit in...NOT! 

The thing is. I don't give a flying fanny fart about fitting in with the bitch clique. I am just looking for a decent Dom with a mind of his own, who is not looking to be part of the scene, so he has access to LOTS! of free arse...Who is jealous, clingy bitch freeee!

Nuff said for now...

Are fem subs who are looking for a Daddy Dom. Looking for the attention they had when they was growing up. Or missed when they was growing up??? Or they could just be into Daddy, daughter age play. What do I know, lol...

Gawd! I had a bad night. Well a night of watching Dexter. Strange how you end up loving Dexter, even though he is a murderer. Though. He does only kill bad people...

I know. What has Dexter got to do with spanking...Mind you. On an episode I watched last night. Or was it this morning...Anyway. Dexters policewoman sister has fallen for the 'mature' FBI agent, who has been called in to catch Dexter...

It's complicated...To cut a long story short. The 'mature' FBI agent says to Debbera {Dexters sister}...With the age difference, you're not to old to spank {Or words to that effect}. Then he smacked her on the bottom...

Love being spanked in that position,
but nooo teddies on my bed...

Personally. I think she should be given a long hard, bare bottom spanking over his knee...I know. Its fiction...but...She is so obviously insecure. So obviously needs a Daddy figure in her life. Because growing up. Dexter got all the attention from their father...Its a long story. If you watch Dexter you will know what I am waffling on about...

It got me thinking {No it does not hurt}

"Are fem subs who are looking for a Daddy Dom. Looking for the attention they had when they was growing up. Or missed when they was growing up??? Or they could just be into Daddy, daughter ageplay. What do I know, lol..."

Ohh! Yes! The reason why I think she should be given, a long hard bare bottom spanking, over his knee. Because she is sooo! insecure. The painful, humiliating spanking would be a release. The release you get from a long, intense spanking session, is "Wooo!" I would recommend it as therapy...

Would love to be spanked in that position...
Over a branch like that, in a woods like that...
With nooo! interruptions,
of course, lol...
Early in the morning...
A cool breeze blowing across my hot bottom & pussy...
"Bliss!"

That said...It would only be a positive release, if you was being spanked by a Dom who treats you with respect. A Dom who is emotionally insecure himself {Or herself} would be more emotionally destructive. I don't think it is good for anyone to be treated like s**t, by an insecure person, who seems to get off on other people's hurt...& I don't just mean pain from the spanking...

Spanking is supposed to be fun...& sexual, sensual, erotic, a release, total relaxation. It is supposed to leave you feeling good; not bad. So. I think it is important to steer clear of emotionally screwed up people, who in the long run do you more bad then good; give you more stress, hassle, grief then pleasure...

Sooo! I'm looking for a Daddy, daughter relationship. Maybe when I was in my twenties. If I had got into spanking in my twenties. I know I would have loved to be spanked at that age...but I waited until I was in my 30's. Now I am in my 40's. No way could I pretend to be a little girl, role play or not. It is too close to home for me...having 3 daughters...

Ohh! Yeah! To the arrogant, rude, control freak, abuser. Who decided to bully me. JUST because I asked to meet face to face for a coffee & a chat. In a neutral place...Rather then be cyber Dommed. Wasting my time...Apparently I should stay at home & take care of my daughters & husband...Unbelievable!

So why do certain people feel they can get away with bullying other people, from the safety of their own home. Hidden behind their screen. Anonymous! I suppose you would have to be a emotionally retarded, insecure, arsehole with women issues...Those type of people I try to avoid. Too much unnecessary, unprovoked, hassle. Yet there they are. So here we are sifting through the s**t to find a decent 'safe,sane' Dom...

Keep Calm & Bend Over My Knee For A Spanking...

I know I am not looking for a 'Master'
For someone to be my 'Master'
It has to be an exclusive relationship...
As I am married I am not looking
for an exclusive relationship...
...but I am not looking for
casual, occasional 'no fees exchanged'
mentality,either...

I like to read other peoples BDSM/spanking blogs. It is interesting to read other peoples thoughts, which helps me get my sub life into perspective...

Nooo! I don't need to get my subbie thoughts into perspective...Sheesh!...lol...

Anyway. I was reading the blog "The taming of a shrew"...Her blog post "ABCDEFG...This is what it means to me." She was writing about dynamics & labels. Like DD {Domestic discipline} s/M, etc...

"I was kneeling before him and he pulled me close. “You're not my slave,” he said. “Yes, you're mine. You belong to me. But I also belong to you.”

Belonging to each other...yes. I liked that. He went on to explain that to him, our dynamic is about mutual self-giving. He focuses his efforts on meeting my needs, and I focus my efforts on meeting his. And as I came to learn more about different dynamics, I started to gain a greater appreciation for what they are."

I think that is a great, so called dynamic. A more healthy, less controlling, less emotionally destructive, safe, sane, consensual 'dynamic'...Though. Surely a relationship has nothing to do with dynamics? Just saying...

I don't think I would want a so called DD relationship. From what I gather the 'Domestic' life far outweighs the 'Discipline' part. Play for a few hours every other week, then going back to my 'Domestic' life is more what I am looking for in a D/s relationship...

The same as total obedience & servitude...Not my idea of a D/s relationship. I am married. If anyone is going to tell me what to do & expect obedience. It will be my husband. The same as the arrogant attitude "How can my husband allow another man to spank me"...Ummm! My marriage is no one elses business...I have had a few blokes start asking about my husband. How I see it. My marriage & my husbands opinion. Is none of their business. I did have one nob get quite nasty, but I dare say he would have found some other reason to be a Jerk...

I'm just looking for a trustworthy Dom
to give me a thorough spanking
on a regular basis...
I am just looking for a close loyal friend
who will give me a good thrashing
& leave me feeling totally relaxed
not totally stressed & vice versa...
I  am just looking for a spanking 'release'
not to be bossed around...

Unfortunately there are quite a few nasty, arrogant little men out there, who have bad attitudes towards women. I get the feeling that these men don't particuly like women. Ohh dear did you have a bad experience with some woman...That is not my problem, mate! I am not that woman. Not all women are the same. The same as not all men are the same...

My Ex ex Dom, used to tell me that he got pleasure from pleasuring women 'Plural'...lol...Which was fine with me, but whilst he got all the pleasure & attention. I got the grief. I could tolerate the grief whilst we was playing every other week & going to spanking parties together...

So. I am looking for a Dom who does not feel the need to tell me about his other women...but...If he has already got a sub & I am just a fresh new exciting 'flavor of the month' bottom/ playmate, whilst she is the one...Do me a favour...Don't waste my time...Don't insult my intelligence by lying to me...

Nuff said for now..........................................

50 Shades Of Grey-Looking For My Mister Grey-Preferably Not 50 Shades Of F**ked Up-For Lots Of Kinky 'Spanking!'...

"Mmmm!"
I do love a twitching palm,
it makes me tingle with anticipation...

I'm looking forward to the movie '50 shades of grey' coming out on valentines day. Though I won't be going to see it at the cinema; I am going to wait until it comes out on box office. I'd rather watch it in the privacy of my own home...

Not that I'm expecting much kinky fuckery. The books only had 3 {or was it 2} spankings in the trilogy, but there was lots of sex. I enjoyed reading the books. I thought they was well written...

It was quite amusing seeing how wound up some of the so called real kinky peeps got...Jeeze! Calm down. It is only a book. These people do seem to get easily wound up. Or was it envy. Probably envy...

I know a lot of people read the books. From my cousin to my friends Mum. They seemed to enjoy it...A LOT!...lol...Did more vanilla peeps join the scene? Ummm! I'm not sure about that. The scene can be pretty weird. If you think about it deeply. It is weird! Grown men & women having their bare bottoms smacked. Grown men & women dressing like school kids...Weird!

I can see it from the vanilla persons point of view. You either love it or you think OMFG! these people are crazy. Okay. Maybe not crazy. Just plain ole 'weird freaks' lol...

To the vanilla person. The true vanilla person. Spanking, power exchange, punishing someone for their misdeeds, controlling someone, training someone. Is 'Abusive!' Of course it is. There is a very fine line between being kinky fuckery & some control freak screwing with your mind. This is why I don't do 'Serious!' 'Angry face!' Doms...Jeeze! Mate! It is supposed to be fun...

I'm trying to remember this. Men are not complicated. They are 'Literal creatures' Unless you happen to be my EX Dom {Not my EX ex Dom} He {The EX Dom} was more like a old woman with narcissistic tendencies...

Mind you. When the uncomplicated 'literal creature' is making your life complicated, by literally rubbing other women in your face, then getting off on your reaction. Or the reaction he was hoping for. As in 'Jealousy!'...Lets just say it is not worth the hassle...I am looking for a close friendship, with lots of regular 'intense' 'Mmmm!' spankings...

As a sub I am a 'literal creature' I want a uncomplicated. D/s relationship. I don't give a flying ^&^% that you want to play with LOTS! of other women. I just don't want to see them, hear about them, or put up with the grief they give me when they get jealous; because you give them the impression that you want them...Jeeze! Mate! I just want your friendship, lots of regular play, some input & noooo! crap from your bitches...Oops! I mean friends...Which is actually quite 'Uncomplicated!'...

I don't need daily attention. I just need a little effort on your part. Even if it is just exchanging a few emails each week. I am happy with a few exchanged emails. We both have a vanilla life. I am married. I have my family. I think I would prefer a married Dom. Hopefully he won't be a bottom collector. As in plays with sooo many women he can barely fit me in. Because he has stretched himself so thin. Men are uncomplicated, literal creatures who struggle with multi tasking, lol...

I do want a Dom {My Dom} I don't want to be the other 'just a play mate' sub, to some other subs Dom. Mind you. I say I am a sub, but many would describe me as a spankee. Just a mere spankee. I think BDSM! sm peeps gave us subs into spanking that label...I am so much more then just a spankee. In play I am submissive {No you can't force your cheesy cock down my throat. I will bite you!}

{Smiles sweetly}

Sooo! Do I want my Christian Grey?...

"You are mine"
Only as your sub...
Hopefully my new Dom will be married...

Ummm! Nah! Not really. I just want a Dom who sees me as his kinky equal. Though he gets his pleasure from spanking me. I am not a switch. I just want a Dom who can be a close friend, with out keeping me at arms length. JUST incase I full in love with him. The only love I will ever give my Dom; is the love you give a close friend. I am married. I love my husband. I have no intention of breaking up my marriage for another man...

The saying 'It just happened!'...Ummm! Nooo! If that happens you let it happen. Deep down you wanted it to happen. Maybe you need the attention...Anyway. As I was saying. I just want a Dom who sees me as 'His sub' His priority above all the other 'playmates'. I just want a Dom with some $%^%$% stamina & I don't mean keeping it up...

I mean...I just want a Dom who appreciates what we have got & does not start taking it for granted. I just want a Dom who will not keep me dangling whilst he pursues flavor of the month. If you want to move on to pastures new, please finish our D/s relationship first. I have no problem with you moving on. Just end our D/s relationship first. Don't keep me as back up when flavour of the month goes sour or loses its flavor...


Nuff said for now....................................................

I have lots of fond memories of being caned whilst bent over the back of the settee. Just the right position for Sir to cane my sit spot "Oowww!"

I was just listening to a youtube video clip about how our thoughts affect the energy around us. Positive energy has a higher vibration then negative energy...

So. I am going to fill my spanking blog with spanking pictures which make me tingle. As in pictures which make me feel "Mmmm!" I want to be spanked like that. I wish that was me in that position...

Mind you. My arms tied like that, bent behind my back..."Ouch!" I might well be thinking more about the pain in my arms then in my bottom...Good arm stretch though, for toning your arms...

I was just remembering being spanked in that position, but I was not restrained. It is quite a comfy position. If you have a cushion under your knees of course. I don't mind my bottom burning, but nooo carpet burns please...

If you was tied up like that; you could literally not move. Not wriggle away from the painful stinging spanks..."Mmmm!" I think that would be quite...Ummm! 'Intense!' I suppose. I imagine you could take even more pain then usual, because your mind would be focused on how restrained you are. I think I would like to try that spanking position. Of course I would have to trust the Dom I am playing with...

This picture brings back many fond memories & makes me want a good leathering, whilst bent over the arm of the settee...{Sighs}

I tried to go back to my lady Karen, promiscuous ward of Sir Stephen; fantasy melodrama, last night...but I fell asleep. I'll try again tonight...

You never know. Maybe the high frequency vibrations will reach my ideal Dom. Who is also highly charged with erotic kinky energy, lol...

My ideal Dom will be on the same frequency as me, but he will get his pleasure from giving me a very 'Mmmm!' pleasurable, 'intense!' thrashing. One of the many pleasures I got from playing with my Ex ex Dom. I could feel how much he was enjoying spanking me...No. Not that...Sheesh!

I feel my last D/s relationship
broke down through lack of effort...

Though. That can be quite nice...Just not with a near stranger who is just after free sex. I am not looking for a bloke to have sex with. I am into being spanked, not sex. If I want sex I will go to a sex club with my husband...

Actually I have been to a sex/swinging party with my husband, but it was sooo! boring...{Yawns!} Mind you the hosts had no idea about setting the mood. Bright lights & no music does not set the mood for dirty sex with a complete stranger...Mind you I am not into dirty sex...Definitely not into creepy, pervy, leering old men {Shudders!}...

A couple at this party were into dogging. They was telling us all about it. I was thinking 'Eeeewww!' Do I really want to get intimate with you. I don't know what I might catch...

I love this picture, but I don't like corner time. I am not into corner time. I avoid bossy Doms who think it is their Domly right to force me into absolute obedience in the corner...WTF!... %^&^ off! & find a woman into standing or kneeling in corners...

Also. I avoid arrogant Dom's who believe it is their Dom given right to punish me & dictate how I behave. You don't like women who swear? Don't give me cause to swear at you then...Hmmm!

{Smiles sweetly & flutters eyelashes}

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I need longer legs to get into that position. Or a chair with a lower back of course...I have lots of fond memories of being caned whilst bent over the back of the settee. Just the right position for Sir to cane my sit spot "Oowww!"  I used to end up kicking both legs up at the same time...I do miss being given long, almost unbearable thrashings, where I end up floating off into subbie land...

Actually I don't think I could take that much of a caning now days. I will have to build up. A bit like with exercise, lol...

Spanking Art Of Paula Meadows , Patty,and Sarah Swain

There Are Devilish Thought Even In The Most Angelic Minds...

Looking at spanking pictures got me so turned on, I needed to take a bath for some private 'alone' time. All I need now is to keep myself motivated towards my goal of slimming into my bloomers...

I have a bloomer thing going on, lol...I think I was born in the wrong era, but then again; imagine NO! internet 'Gasp!'...Also. All that being a subservient 'lady' I can be a lady, but not sure about the subservient part. I would spend sooo much time over my Masters knee...'Mmmm!'...

I used to help myself full asleep, by fantasising about my own spanking melodrama...I was lady Karen. Sir Stephens {My Ex ex Dom} promiscuous ward...It did used to help me sleep...A virtual spanking & a orgasm, what more do you need, lol...Other then the real spanking {Sighs}

I believe in the power of our own mind. I believe in visualisation. I don't believe in airy, fairy, magic, but I do believe we are capable of manifesting what we most want through our own thoughts. When I was fantasising about being lady Karen, being spanked by Sir Stephen. I was getting exactly what I fantasised about. As soon as I stopped fantasising I stopped getting the 'Mmmm!' spankings. Probably because when I was fantasising about it I was more open to receive it...

Oo! Interesting position. In my fantasy there would not be lots of people standing around watching. It would not be a soldier. It would be my guardian 'Sir Stephen' In a field, bent over a water trough. Surrounded by woodland. Our horses grazing on the lush meadow grass...

Imagine the cool breeze blowing across your stinging, burning welts...{Sighs}

I have been having trouble sleeping lately. Maybe I should go back to my fantasy melodrama. I used to fall asleep pretty quick & sleep quite well...I also was having a great time with my then Dom...

K will be here soon. For our usual red wine & a good old natter; evening...

We do miss going to spanking parties, but the way the parties used to be. I miss playing with lots of different men {Party spankings} Also. That feeling of playing with lots of different Doms. Then going over my Sirs knee for a spanking which always felt so much better, because we had that close connection which comes from playing one to one; comes from having a close D/s relationship. It is a pity that all changed...Ohh well. Life goes on. Maybe one day I will have that kind of D/s relationship & close connection with another Dom...

Gotta go...........................................

Social Pariah-In The Spanking Scene-Looking For Fellow Pariah 'Dom!'

I have always been myself,
though myself is quite quiet, aloof {Sometimes} reserved...
To be honest. I can't do the fake, smarmy, hugging, kissing,
& trying soooo! hard to fit in...Its just not me...

I have manoeuvred my desk around so I am now facing the door; my screen is facing the wall, sooo no one can catch me looking at bare bottom spanking pictures. Which means I can write more in my spanking blog...

It appears no one is brave enough to be seen posting in the secret spanking coven, because it would be 'social spanking scene suicide' to be seen consorting with the enemy. God forbid one of the sheep break away from the bleating flock & actually have a mind of their own 'Gasp!'...

Obviously as a quiet person
I don't tend to mingle that well,
so I don't make lots of acquaintances,
but I have made a few good friends...
Personally I prefer to have a few close friends,
then lots of acquaintances...

Ohh Yeah. I suppose I should add that I am not the social pariah I'm inferring to. Though. That said...Maybe I am, lol. Do I care? Not really. I do prefer honest, genuine, people with a mind of their own...

A good friend is coming to see me on Feb 17th. I am contemplating if I should play or not, but when I think about it. I don't want to play. Which is 'frustrating' Why don't I want to play. I used to love being spanked. I used to be insatiable when it come to playing...

"Kids have just come in the door. I did not have to quickly click onto a new tab. My cosy corner is definitely much better for blogging about spanking. I can even look at 'Gasp!' spanking pictures & not get caught..."

My favorite position
to be in, of all times...

Anyway. Finding a Dom/spanker in a WHOLE! spanking scene of people who seem to be looking for a community. LOTS! of occasional, casual play, with lots of occasional, casual men & women, is not easy. I'm looking for just one Dom. Not a different Dom every other week. Where as lots of Doms. If they are indeed 'Dom' seem to be looking for a variety of bottoms to choose from...

The majority of men are switch. No offense to the switch men, but most of the time they are more sub then Dom. If I could find a 50/50 Dom that might be Dom enough, but the switch men are usually nearer 70/30. 30% Dom is not...Ummm! Dom enough for me....

Or they appear to be more into role play. I am not into role play. I find it embarrassing. I am a grown woman. To me. Acting like a little girl is just plain...Ummm! Embarrassing. I do try to see it from the other role play persons point of view..."Each to their own"...

I have been canedmany times  in that position
Not sure if that is my fav position
Ummm! Probably not...
I prefer being caned
bent over the arm or back of the sette...
Mind you, that is a " Mmmm!" position
especially if you can lay across the stool
& feel supported...

Fine. If you want to wear frumpy clothes, put on a squeaky voice & act like a prat. Good for you...I personally prefer the more grown up sexy school/college girl approach. I have seen a woman in a more sexy school uniform, being herself. She was not a skinny woman. She had womanly curves, but she did look the part. Her personality shone out...I suppose her confidence is quite sexy...

Nooo! I'm not a lesbian. Not that I have a problem with lesbians...I don't actually have any issues with any women. Just the bitches who give us woman a bad name. Ohh! & the tosser men, but I won't go into that right now. That is for another blog post...

I do try to see the good in people, but sometimes their bad traits outweigh the good. I suppose some of the bitchy attitude from some women comes from feelings of jealousy, insecurity, emotional issues. There are a LOT of women in the scene who seem to crave attention...As I have been saying for gawd knows how long "Real life still applies"...

Gawd! Looking at these spanking art pictures I feel really "Mmmm!" Spank me. I want a good, long, thorough, intense, almost unbearable 'Real' spanking, but...With the right Dom for me...{Sighs}

"Mmmm!" I love being held secure in place,
whilst being giving a almost unbearable spanking...

The thing is. To find the right Dom I need to sift through a LOT of blokes. So I need to make up a questionare. Number 1 question being. 1] What do you think of the Bs site?...Now. It all depends on how he answers this question. If he is in with the bitter twisted jealous bitchy bullying group...Bye-Bye...From my experience. My type of people are not into bullying others...

I suppose you could say I am bullying them, by writing about them in my blog. They are welcome to put me right if they feel I am wrong...

I'm not looking for one of their enemies. I am more looking for "I don't get involved!". Its like the bullies bully some woman. The women talks to a friend about it. He then decides to go & start a controversial debate. Well. He wound up the culprits & they took the bait. Now the bullies believe that they know who this bloke is. In their usual up themselves arrogance. They are right. So they make assumptions. Even though they have no proof that this person they are accusing of being the one who dared to stir them up. Of course they are right...Hmmm! The word 'Arrogant' springs to mind. I really don't want to meet a Dom who is associated with those types of people...

Love this pic...
It somehow reminds me of my Ex ex Dom...
Nuns & tartan skirts...
Now I'm tingling...

I don't usually dictate to people who they can & can't talk to, but in this case I'd rather not get involved with people who see bullies as being good people to be friends with...Now. Someone who speaks their mind & sticks up for themselves, that is fine. We're all entitled to our own opinion & reaction. I just can't be dealing with control freaks...'Think like us, or we will bully you'...Hmmm! People like that are best avoided...Just give me a good spanking & be done with it...Sheesh! All this drama & still not a good Dom among them lol...

I could be all positive. All airy fairy 'Blessed be!' but...How boring is that. I believe in positive thinking. I am a positive person. Though some people assume quiet introverts are 'meek mild timid lil mice' Have they not heard the saying 'the quiet ones are the worse'. Quiet people can be happy, positive peeps too. Once we accept ourselves as being introverts & think 'Screw you!' to the ignorant peeps...

Gotta go..........................................

Twos Company & An Amazing Spanking Session-Threes Well!

Three more days to go, to the end of 2014. Then a whole new year of possibilities...I can't wait...2014 will always be remembered as a sad year, because it is the year my Mum passed away, but then every year after that will be sad, because she will not be here with us...Mind you I still feel as if she has not gone, that she is just somewhere else, where I can't visit...

Anyway. 2014 is also the year I lost my subbie confidence as a sub & took a break. A long break...Not anymore. I am making a comeback a more confident "Screw you A holes!" sub...Nooo! I am not taking up anal sex or any other anal considered kinky, wossy..."Eeewww!"

Though..."Figging?" That is a lickle intriguing, but {No puns intended} messy! "Eeewww!" Butt plugs. Ummm! I think I would just be thinking the whole time "I am going to have an accident-I am going to have an accident-I am going to have an accident"

Anyway. As I was about to say, before I got distracted by the A holes...I have done a lot of soul searching & come to the conclusion that I am perfectly happy being 'meee' so what if certain people can't handle my uniqueness...{Only joking, I am not the princess type, lol}

I already have in my head what I am looking for. Or should I say 'who' I am looking for. If he will have me, of course. I can't just say 'Oy! You!' 'Yes you!' You are going to be my Dom. He might not like my unique subbiness...

Mind you. Aren't most Dom's just looking for a nice spankable bottom? A sub they can have a good natter with about spanking stuff? Nooo strings? No fees exchanged?...No? Okay! Maybe not. I could be wrong. I'm sure there are Doms out there looking for a 'special someone' sub, not necessarily asking to be his wife or live with him 24/7...I am happily married {No thanks to certain bitches & a particular A hole}. I would actually like to find a Dom who is also happily married & looking for a 'special someone' sub to play with on a regular basis. Strings attached, but in a D/s relationship way...Of course no fees exchanged, but I don't want to be used & abused as a freebie arse either...

I do know at least one Dom who likes me as a friend. He is quite happy to chat & not play. Actually I know two Doms who see me that way, but I chose to 'Call it a day' with one of them, for various reasons. 

Ignore the rude & the ignorant...

I suppose. Because I am a independent, individual subbie. I am looking for the same in my Dom. Someone who is quite happy not being popular in a group of many, who is quite satisfied with me. Where do you find a Dom like that? I don't mean I want total exclusive where he does not play with any other woman. I am talking about where when we are together playing WE are together playing...Avoid the groups of lovely like minded peeps, avoid the grief from jealous bints who happen to play with my Dom...Jeeze! women! Is there any need for it, FFS! Grow up!

I wonder how many Doms out there, are looking for a 'special someone' sub. Someone he has a close friendship with. His priority next to his wife & family. Someone who loves being spanked, as herself. Is not really into roleplay, but quite likes victorian night wear & underwear. Though don't particularly wants to see her in a school uniform, because she is a woman not a little school girl...

I could write more, but this self centred blog vent is over for now, I'm sure there will be more...

A Well Deserved Caning!

Roll on new years day. I can't wait to get started on my 'healthy eating' {mediterranean} diet...Once all the booze {Well advocat} has gone {I can drink red wine on my mediterranean diet} & all the chocolates, mince pies, 'Mmmm!' boozy cream...Anyway. Once the Christmas grub has gone we {Hubby is joining me} will stock up the cupboards, fridge & freezer with healthy stuff...

A well deserved caning...

My favorite implement. I love being caned, but I only get pleasure being caned, when I can totally relax & let myself go, knowing that the Dom caning me is not going to go to far & cause me lasting damage...

I have many fond memories of being caned in that position...The almost unbearable, sharp cutting, burning pain, building up from a sharp sting to...hot, burning, no pain just pleasure. The pain is still there but I am getting pleasure from it rather then wanting to pull away from it. I lift my bottom to meet each burning stroke, instead of squirming to escape.............................................

Art by Max Safonov

"Mmmm!" I would love to be thrashed in that position, but by a priest/Dom... please...

Looking at that picture, I can almost imagine the pain...'Bliss!'...

A Good Old Fashioned Over The Knee Spanking-Sir Sitting On A Kitchen Chair-Or Caned Whilst Bent Over My New Dining Table...

I borrowed this picture, from the blog
'My personal thinking spot" {good blog name}

Wow! I must be losing my subbie side...I just realised. That the whole time I was looking at tables & chairs, it never once crossed my mind 'Bent over the table for a caning'...Or...Over the knee spanking, with my Dom/spanker, sitting on the chair. I love over the knee spanking in that position, but, it never entered my mind...

I still have all the fond, 'Mmmm!' memories...Luckily for me, or unluckily, which ever way you look at it, I have got one of these annoying, aggravating memories, where I remember stuff from years ago, including the niggly little details. The 'Mmmm!' details are fine, its just the negative stuff I could do with forgetting...

I borrowed this picture from the  blog
'Words on the bottom' {Another good blog name}

As we bought 2 tables & 8 chairs, which turned into 12, when I opened one of the drop leaf tables; for christmas. I now have a spare chair, to turn into my over the knee spanking chair. Oo! Or kneel on the seat of one chair, bend over the back, with my hands on the other chair. The options are endless, lol...


I will decoupage my spanking chairs, to look all spanko like. Pink with red stripes? One of the drop leaf tables is going to be my art/craft work station. So I have a place to do my painting & mosaicing...I love doing mosaic, but it tends to make a mess & take up too much space in my kitchen on the worktop...

I borrowed this pic, from the site
' Kimberly Sleep Spanking '
I do like that position,
I have been spanked  in that position,
but, Nah! The table would collapse on me...

Being a drop leaf table, it is narrow enough to bend over, so your arms & head are low, bottom high...I remember being caned, from cold, whilst bent over my old dining table...Sooo! My new years resolution for 2015, is to get back into spanking & maybe going to events. I will decoupage my spanking chairs. Might decoupage my drop leaf/spanking table, as well...

The only problem is. How do I get back into it, after so long & having lost my confidence. I am working on my confidence. Getting everything scene like into perspective. Though. I am adamant that I will no longer accept being treated like I am the safe option. I am going to be the 'best option'. Of course I will still be myself, just a more confident, less likely to settle for whatever, me...

My kind of spanking...{My Personal Thinking Spot: Determination after a long Week...}

Click on the link to read...
My Personal Thinking Spot: Determination after a long Week...: "Come on over my lap." He told me as we were just perfectly snuggled into bed together. "Really? Do I have too?" I ask...



"My kind of spanking...Not a punishment spanking, just a almost unbearable, total release; ultra relaxation spanking...Love it..."

Quotes About BDSM---“I've got a mind to turn you over my knee and spank the spoiled hell out of you” ― Larissa Ione, Sin Undone

" “It's hard for an educated woman to turn her head off. That's part of the joy of being a submissive. None of the decisions are yours. When you can't refuse anything and can't even move, those voices in your head go silent. All you can do, and all you are permitted to do, is feel.” ― Cherise Sinclair, Dark Citadel "

Or women...
So my husband tells me...
I am not like other sub's either...
My blog is going to be all about me as a sub...

 "Mmmm!" In my case, after a thorough 'intense' thrashing...The after effects, the feeling of total relaxation, a release from all the usual stresses of everyday, real life. Of course real life still applies, but subbie me is separate from real, so called vanilla me...

I love being spanked, for sexual, sensual, erotic, intensely agonising, almost unbearable pain & pleasure, pleasure & pain, which ever...

“It's taking all my self-control not to fuck you on the hood of this car, just to show you that you're mine, and if I want to buy you a fucking car, I'll buy you a fucking car" Christian Grey” ― E.L. James, Fifty Shades of Grey

Oo! Okay Christian, I'll let you buy me a car...

That applies to the right Dom/spanker
for me, too...
I love being spanked,
I used to love going to spanking parties
& playing with lots of different Dom's,
but when it comes to 'real' intense play,
I want a Dom, my Dom, not shared
with many other subs,
Not necessarily exclusive,
but, my Dom...
As they say ignorance is bliss...
Bliss when my Dom is there playing
with me! What I don't know about
can't hurt me...
I don't need to hear about other women,
or witness other women with my Dom,
but, I believe in giving each other space
& treating each other with respect...

That is quite sexy. The words not the car, though...Thrashed into submission, then taken 'Hard!', in the car. Probably the back. Otherwise the gear stick gets in the way...No. I am not into gear stick insertion, lol...

Though, of course some people are...'Each to their own' & all that...

“I urge you all today, especially today during these times of chaos and war, to love yourself without reservations and to love each other without restraint. Unless you're into leather.” ― Margaret Cho

Lol! Mind you, I am not particuly into leather. Unless it is a leather strap, or leather paddle, or 'Mmmm!' a leather belt...Leather masks? Nah!...Leather trousers? Ummm! Maaaybe!...That does depend on who's wearing them. Pot bellies don't tend to look good in tight leather trousers...Just saying...

“I've got a mind to turn you over my knee and spank the spoiled hell out of you” ― Larissa Ione, Sin Undone

Oo!...Except I am not spoiled, in anyway. Well. I used to be a spoiled sub, from all the wonderful play, I was privileged to receive...but not anymore {Sighs}

“Of course it hurts, it’s a spanking. How else would it work?” ― Breanna Hayse, Time Out

{HeeHee} Well of course, the harder the better...Though, preferably from an experienced spanker {Dom} I trust not to go too far & cause me lasting {perminant} harm. The feeling of having a close connection adds to the play, as well...

“You so need a Daddy, little girl.” ― Breanna Hayse, The Game Plan

Ummm! Nooo! Not my thing...I am in no way into age play..."Each to their own"