Sooo! I made a HUGE! decision. I am giving up on dieting & giving up on spanking. I am going to focus on my garden & creating our beautiful, bohemian home. Ohh! & feng shui & witchy stuff. All spanking does is make me remember negative crap. All dieting does is make me fatter, more disappointed, more disheartened, more of a failure...Enough is enough...
What is the point of putting all my focus on the two things which will never be how I want it to be. It will take a lot of effort on my part to steer clear of Bs, Ouch & Fetlife......
Gawd! What else will I blog about, lol...I might end up with a vacant blog...but...That just goes to show what consumes my mind therefore my life. Yeah. Writing about gardening & feng shui & witchy stuff, is a tad dull...
I just don't like the scene. I don't like the people. I think the scene is full of emotionally retarded people. Lets face it. I had his lordship {
Taking the pee. I don't really see him as my lord, lol}. He was one of the best Dom's. A actual Dom. Who was ever so charming, respectful...Amazing at spanking. Hence the jealous bitches. Ohh! Yeah! & the bitter, twisted mental case PE screwing with my head, then setting out to destroy my reputation. Just like he did L's...Evil! Vindictive! Spiteful! Malicious! Ugly little man...
F is basically a unreliable control freak. Who assumes negative shit! about me. I am cursed, lol...Sooo! I might as well do something about it. Give up on the idea that I am going to lose weight & meet my ideal Dom {Who does not exist} If he does exist I will have to join the que. Good Dom's, who are not arrogant, tight, user, tossers; are very desirable...A bit like black Friday with only one tele in the sale 75% off...
Personally. I think there is too much settling for crap, which allows crap & creates crap...What woman in her right mind, wants to be used & abused 'no fees exchanged' by some ugly, useless bloke with all the charm & respect of a sex offender who stalks & grooms young boys & girls...
Women want a LOT! more, but it is almost an impossible dream. Mind you. The likes of B, M F, etc etc etc, are none too attractive. Sooo! They form a 'ugly bint' clique & support each other. As S said. Women want attention from other women. He is right, but only because they are all of a kind. Fat, ugly, insecure, screwed up, suffering from some illness or other, usually fibro. It is more of a fattie, fibro clique, lol...{
Ohh! Yesss! I went there. I was diagnosed with lupus 22 yrs ago, so yes I can go there}
I suppose I could carry on slagging the weirdo's off for a little while longer, just why I make the changes. Changing habits is challenging. The difference being. I accept that I am never going to lose weight to feel less self conscious to sift through the tons of shit to find my ideal Dom. Only to find that a whole bunch of jealous bitches have got their needy claws into him...
Sooo! Steer clear of getting noticed. Don't log into Bs. Or FL. Or Ouch. Don't blog publicly about them. {
Oops! I did} Just use them to have a good ole blog bitch fest...Its like L. Mz L. The druggy with narcissistic tendencies. B the screwed up emotionally retarded 'Bully!'. M F sooo! desperate for attention, acceptance & approval. Emo M. Who thought she had found her knight in shining armor, but he brought his princess with him to the ball...
Not that I am a 'princess' Maaaybe a lickle in my blog, lol...
Yep! I went there. Yes I agree there is no need for it. If I made lots of lovely, like minded, kissing, hugging, kissing arse, fake, smarmy, two faced, gossiping, back stabbing...effort. I might fit in...NOT!
The thing is. I don't give a flying fanny fart about fitting in with the bitch clique. I am just looking for a decent Dom with a mind of his own, who is not looking to be part of the scene, so he has access to LOTS! of free arse...Who is jealous, clingy bitch freeee!
Nuff said for now...
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