Twos Company & An Amazing Spanking Session-Threes Well!

Three more days to go, to the end of 2014. Then a whole new year of possibilities...I can't wait...2014 will always be remembered as a sad year, because it is the year my Mum passed away, but then every year after that will be sad, because she will not be here with us...Mind you I still feel as if she has not gone, that she is just somewhere else, where I can't visit...

Anyway. 2014 is also the year I lost my subbie confidence as a sub & took a break. A long break...Not anymore. I am making a comeback a more confident "Screw you A holes!" sub...Nooo! I am not taking up anal sex or any other anal considered kinky, wossy..."Eeewww!"

Though..."Figging?" That is a lickle intriguing, but {No puns intended} messy! "Eeewww!" Butt plugs. Ummm! I think I would just be thinking the whole time "I am going to have an accident-I am going to have an accident-I am going to have an accident"

Anyway. As I was about to say, before I got distracted by the A holes...I have done a lot of soul searching & come to the conclusion that I am perfectly happy being 'meee' so what if certain people can't handle my uniqueness...{Only joking, I am not the princess type, lol}

I already have in my head what I am looking for. Or should I say 'who' I am looking for. If he will have me, of course. I can't just say 'Oy! You!' 'Yes you!' You are going to be my Dom. He might not like my unique subbiness...

Mind you. Aren't most Dom's just looking for a nice spankable bottom? A sub they can have a good natter with about spanking stuff? Nooo strings? No fees exchanged?...No? Okay! Maybe not. I could be wrong. I'm sure there are Doms out there looking for a 'special someone' sub, not necessarily asking to be his wife or live with him 24/7...I am happily married {No thanks to certain bitches & a particular A hole}. I would actually like to find a Dom who is also happily married & looking for a 'special someone' sub to play with on a regular basis. Strings attached, but in a D/s relationship way...Of course no fees exchanged, but I don't want to be used & abused as a freebie arse either...

I do know at least one Dom who likes me as a friend. He is quite happy to chat & not play. Actually I know two Doms who see me that way, but I chose to 'Call it a day' with one of them, for various reasons. 

Ignore the rude & the ignorant...

I suppose. Because I am a independent, individual subbie. I am looking for the same in my Dom. Someone who is quite happy not being popular in a group of many, who is quite satisfied with me. Where do you find a Dom like that? I don't mean I want total exclusive where he does not play with any other woman. I am talking about where when we are together playing WE are together playing...Avoid the groups of lovely like minded peeps, avoid the grief from jealous bints who happen to play with my Dom...Jeeze! women! Is there any need for it, FFS! Grow up!

I wonder how many Doms out there, are looking for a 'special someone' sub. Someone he has a close friendship with. His priority next to his wife & family. Someone who loves being spanked, as herself. Is not really into roleplay, but quite likes victorian night wear & underwear. Though don't particularly wants to see her in a school uniform, because she is a woman not a little school girl...

I could write more, but this self centred blog vent is over for now, I'm sure there will be more...

A Well Deserved Caning!

Roll on new years day. I can't wait to get started on my 'healthy eating' {mediterranean} diet...Once all the booze {Well advocat} has gone {I can drink red wine on my mediterranean diet} & all the chocolates, mince pies, 'Mmmm!' boozy cream...Anyway. Once the Christmas grub has gone we {Hubby is joining me} will stock up the cupboards, fridge & freezer with healthy stuff...

A well deserved caning...

My favorite implement. I love being caned, but I only get pleasure being caned, when I can totally relax & let myself go, knowing that the Dom caning me is not going to go to far & cause me lasting damage...

I have many fond memories of being caned in that position...The almost unbearable, sharp cutting, burning pain, building up from a sharp sting to...hot, burning, no pain just pleasure. The pain is still there but I am getting pleasure from it rather then wanting to pull away from it. I lift my bottom to meet each burning stroke, instead of squirming to escape.............................................

Art by Max Safonov

"Mmmm!" I would love to be thrashed in that position, but by a priest/Dom... please...

Looking at that picture, I can almost imagine the pain...'Bliss!'...

A Good Old Fashioned Over The Knee Spanking-Sir Sitting On A Kitchen Chair-Or Caned Whilst Bent Over My New Dining Table...

I borrowed this picture, from the blog
'My personal thinking spot" {good blog name}

Wow! I must be losing my subbie side...I just realised. That the whole time I was looking at tables & chairs, it never once crossed my mind 'Bent over the table for a caning'...Or...Over the knee spanking, with my Dom/spanker, sitting on the chair. I love over the knee spanking in that position, but, it never entered my mind...

I still have all the fond, 'Mmmm!' memories...Luckily for me, or unluckily, which ever way you look at it, I have got one of these annoying, aggravating memories, where I remember stuff from years ago, including the niggly little details. The 'Mmmm!' details are fine, its just the negative stuff I could do with forgetting...

I borrowed this picture from the  blog
'Words on the bottom' {Another good blog name}

As we bought 2 tables & 8 chairs, which turned into 12, when I opened one of the drop leaf tables; for christmas. I now have a spare chair, to turn into my over the knee spanking chair. Oo! Or kneel on the seat of one chair, bend over the back, with my hands on the other chair. The options are endless, lol...


I will decoupage my spanking chairs, to look all spanko like. Pink with red stripes? One of the drop leaf tables is going to be my art/craft work station. So I have a place to do my painting & mosaicing...I love doing mosaic, but it tends to make a mess & take up too much space in my kitchen on the worktop...

I borrowed this pic, from the site
' Kimberly Sleep Spanking '
I do like that position,
I have been spanked  in that position,
but, Nah! The table would collapse on me...

Being a drop leaf table, it is narrow enough to bend over, so your arms & head are low, bottom high...I remember being caned, from cold, whilst bent over my old dining table...Sooo! My new years resolution for 2015, is to get back into spanking & maybe going to events. I will decoupage my spanking chairs. Might decoupage my drop leaf/spanking table, as well...

The only problem is. How do I get back into it, after so long & having lost my confidence. I am working on my confidence. Getting everything scene like into perspective. Though. I am adamant that I will no longer accept being treated like I am the safe option. I am going to be the 'best option'. Of course I will still be myself, just a more confident, less likely to settle for whatever, me...

My kind of spanking...{My Personal Thinking Spot: Determination after a long Week...}

Click on the link to read...
My Personal Thinking Spot: Determination after a long Week...: "Come on over my lap." He told me as we were just perfectly snuggled into bed together. "Really? Do I have too?" I ask...



"My kind of spanking...Not a punishment spanking, just a almost unbearable, total release; ultra relaxation spanking...Love it..."

Quotes About BDSM---“I've got a mind to turn you over my knee and spank the spoiled hell out of you” ― Larissa Ione, Sin Undone

" “It's hard for an educated woman to turn her head off. That's part of the joy of being a submissive. None of the decisions are yours. When you can't refuse anything and can't even move, those voices in your head go silent. All you can do, and all you are permitted to do, is feel.” ― Cherise Sinclair, Dark Citadel "

Or women...
So my husband tells me...
I am not like other sub's either...
My blog is going to be all about me as a sub...

 "Mmmm!" In my case, after a thorough 'intense' thrashing...The after effects, the feeling of total relaxation, a release from all the usual stresses of everyday, real life. Of course real life still applies, but subbie me is separate from real, so called vanilla me...

I love being spanked, for sexual, sensual, erotic, intensely agonising, almost unbearable pain & pleasure, pleasure & pain, which ever...

“It's taking all my self-control not to fuck you on the hood of this car, just to show you that you're mine, and if I want to buy you a fucking car, I'll buy you a fucking car" Christian Grey” ― E.L. James, Fifty Shades of Grey

Oo! Okay Christian, I'll let you buy me a car...

That applies to the right Dom/spanker
for me, too...
I love being spanked,
I used to love going to spanking parties
& playing with lots of different Dom's,
but when it comes to 'real' intense play,
I want a Dom, my Dom, not shared
with many other subs,
Not necessarily exclusive,
but, my Dom...
As they say ignorance is bliss...
Bliss when my Dom is there playing
with me! What I don't know about
can't hurt me...
I don't need to hear about other women,
or witness other women with my Dom,
but, I believe in giving each other space
& treating each other with respect...

That is quite sexy. The words not the car, though...Thrashed into submission, then taken 'Hard!', in the car. Probably the back. Otherwise the gear stick gets in the way...No. I am not into gear stick insertion, lol...

Though, of course some people are...'Each to their own' & all that...

“I urge you all today, especially today during these times of chaos and war, to love yourself without reservations and to love each other without restraint. Unless you're into leather.” ― Margaret Cho

Lol! Mind you, I am not particuly into leather. Unless it is a leather strap, or leather paddle, or 'Mmmm!' a leather belt...Leather masks? Nah!...Leather trousers? Ummm! Maaaybe!...That does depend on who's wearing them. Pot bellies don't tend to look good in tight leather trousers...Just saying...

“I've got a mind to turn you over my knee and spank the spoiled hell out of you” ― Larissa Ione, Sin Undone

Oo!...Except I am not spoiled, in anyway. Well. I used to be a spoiled sub, from all the wonderful play, I was privileged to receive...but not anymore {Sighs}

“Of course it hurts, it’s a spanking. How else would it work?” ― Breanna Hayse, Time Out

{HeeHee} Well of course, the harder the better...Though, preferably from an experienced spanker {Dom} I trust not to go too far & cause me lasting {perminant} harm. The feeling of having a close connection adds to the play, as well...

“You so need a Daddy, little girl.” ― Breanna Hayse, The Game Plan

Ummm! Nooo! Not my thing...I am in no way into age play..."Each to their own"